What about life?

Hope, It was Always here.

evelynkirsten — Thu, 16 Dec 2010 18:18:33 +0000

How is it possible to hurt so much? How is it that my heart has room for so much? So much hurt and pain, regret, anguish? It cries and screams out no more! I can take no more! I can stand this hurt no more! The tears flow from my eyes and drip off my nose. I cry out to you because there is nothing more to do. I have lost what most hold dear. It sits heavy like a weight on my soul. The rain falls outside my window and fog clouds the sky like the thoughts that fill my mind flow to my heart and out my eyes. I can take no more. no more. My God where have you been? Why? How could this happen? How could so much brokeness like in one life? I can hardly see what’s in front of me these days… I have felt the angry touch of man and had my innocence stripped of me. My arms have felt the anger of my soul. My body has shook with anger and hurt. I have been abandoned. My mind has been foggy with intoxication. I have cursed your name and the day i was born. I have been broken.
But when i had nothing left and noplace to go He gave me a home. He clothed me and fed me. He held me in the nights of despair. He fought with me through addiction. He held my heart and helped to heal my wounds. He told me that I was treasured and that He was with me even when i felt most alone. He forgave everything. He said everything that happened had a purpose, When i asked why he would let all of it happen to me, He said it was so i could appreciate the beauty and love that our relationship brings. So i could share in the pain of others and show them that there is a God who cares very much and has the power to change everything. He said how could you appreciate the beautiful things I have in store for you and the loving embrace of my grace if you had not first endured the pain? I walked with you through every moment. Now your story can bring hope to this desperate world. You can be the light. He brought me a new life, hope, joy and understanding. He has blessed me beyond belief and death is no longer a fear. I am his daughter and he is my father. I no longer belong to this world and death has been swallowed up, it owns nothing in me. He cares nothing of my past, he took me in when i was nothing and had nothing good to give. I was as broken as possible and he took my pieces and made me whole. Hope is here. Hope is now! and Hope is found in Him. He can change everything all you have to do is ask. You are deeply loved by a perfect savior.
Death will be abandoned when he comes back for his bride.

Quote Day. Love is the Word..

evelynkirsten — Fri, 27 Aug 2010 00:13:11 +0000

“We come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. Only after we have lost everything are we free to do anything. Throw things out there and not be perfect and not have answers to anything and see if people understand.”

—	Angelina Jolie

“And barefoot or first thing in the morning, I feel beautiful because I feel like me. I didn’t always feel that way, but I feel that way now. When somebody just loves you, and when you make somebody happy, when your presence seems to make them happy, you suddenly feel like the most beautiful person in the world.”

—	Angelina Jolie

“Unless commitment is made, there are only promises and hopes… but no plans.”

—	Peter Drucker

“Stuff your eyes with wonder, live as if you’d drop dead in ten seconds. See the world. It’s more fantastic than any dream made or paid for in factories.”

—	Ray Bradbury

“Learning to let go should be learned before learning to get. Life should be touched, not strangled. You’ve got to relax, let it happen at times, and at others move forward with it.”

—	Ray Bradbury

“To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult; our human loneliness is cause enough. But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be.”— Anna Louise Strong

an amazing wedding.

evelynkirsten — Fri, 04 Jun 2010 21:04:40 +0000

Today

evelynkirsten — Sun, 16 May 2010 20:21:59 +0000

Oah life…..

life has ups and downs but don’t the days suck when they start off great and just go downhill from there? that’s how today was….. I went to church and work this morning in the best mood determined to not let anything get me down.. I was on top of the world. I was bouncing around and actually enjoying work … Imagine that. lol. so then some stuff got messed up at work and some people didn’t do their jobs and that resulted in me getting fussed at which made me kinda angry cause it wasn’t my fault….. so then i wanted to punch someone and was in a foul mood and didn’t get to leave work till way later than i planned soo…. My lovely wonderful day turned into a not so great day and the weather has somehow decided to reflect my mood and it’s storming outside. I’m hoping I can jump into a better mood. It’s so hard to get out of a mood once i’m completely in one. I’m just ready to spend my last day of my break happy. Is that really to much to ask? Maybe it’s cause i’m hungry and don’t know it, i really don’t know i think i just want to cry. I’m so frustrated with life and feel like i’m going nowhere and i’m frustrated with work and school and wanting to get out of this routine i call my life. I don’t think people were meant to live doing the same thing every day. day in and day out over and over. I’m ready to get on with my life. I wonder if it’s ready for me? Lately I just don’t know and it really scares me. I’m just not sure how today is going to go.

THINKING

evelynkirsten — Fri, 30 Apr 2010 14:19:23 +0000

I’m thinking of you and it’s giving me a goofy smile and making my stomach flutter. I’m thinking of you like monday thinks about tuesday thinks about wednesday. I think about you like the sun thinks about the moon like like Like im thinking about rain on roofs and movies safe curled up with you. I’m thinking about laying and watching the moon with you. I’m thinking about great conversations and silly moments. I’m thinking of long days and good nights. Of sleeping tight. of keeping warm on chilly nights. of life and laughter. Of time with you. I’m thinking about you.

DARE TO DREAM

evelynkirsten — Sat, 17 Apr 2010 23:08:44 +0000

Somehow after all that has happened there is hope and happiness. I’m excited to be alive despite all the trouble that life has to offer. I am capable of loving again. I am wonderful. I am someone worthy of greatness. I will fight till the end because this life is something I wouldn’t want to miss one second of. I want to meet my soul mate one day and live a simple life full of random happy moments. I want to love till my heart overflows and smile till my face hurts. I want to sing at the top of my lungs and just sit in silence. I want to share my dreams and cry when they are broken. I want to have a family and lots of pets. but most of all I just want to live life fully. I don’t want to let one moment get away because it’s the little moments that make up the big picture that we call life. I want to enjoy the journey.

Thanks….

evelynkirsten — Fri, 16 Apr 2010 20:45:36 +0000

I can’t breath without you but i must.
I saw you today and the fact you are happy brought tears to my eyes because in my mind you shouldn’t be. You should be misrable after what you did to me. You broke me.

But i carry on. I am happy despite what you did. I am content. I can smile knowing that what i have now is so much better than any life we could have tried to make so in a way I guess I should thank you. Thank you for making me leave so I could meet who I am with now. He is something else

CLOSER

evelynkirsten — Thu, 08 Apr 2010 21:35:53 +0000

sometimes you’re closer than my skin……
closer than the wind blowing on this rainy and cold day and that is something.
something more wonderful than the warmth of a blanket when my toes are as cold as ice. when you are closer than my skin i am complete and happy
you are more real than the heart beating inside this temporary chest
You bring me hope when everything else has laid to rest.
as the rain beats down upon the roof and the wind howls outside the windows
you say be still and it will calm
you are the light that forms the dawn.
You are…… closer than anything i am or will be
you are a part of me.

_——-Evelyn Kirsten————

Spring

evelynkirsten — Mon, 05 Apr 2010 20:08:46 +0000

Spring

the night kisses the day
The sky begins to turn a nice shade of gray
The night blushes with love today
Trees casting shade
On this half sunny twilight moment
Each second is brilliant
As the sky touches the sea
As little children play make believe
As the ground holds up the trees
you hold on to me
And there is no place I would rather be
Because with you my soul is free
It is spring and there is a beautiful willow tree
It’s blossoms pink and purple beautiful
A flower blooms in the corner past the grass
A place without a path
Where no one can trespass
Spring has sprung
And it’s only just begun

A sunny day.

evelynkirsten — Tue, 23 Mar 2010 17:35:28 +0000

Class oah class…. On a sunny day it’s so hard to go to class on the week before spring break. Two more school days and I’m out for a week. But I am thankful for school cause it means I am one of the few who can go to school and get an education. It means I can read and write and express myself. Eventhough it is often boring on sunny days such as this, it is important in the end.
I took a nap in my car today in the parking lot after lunch between my classes with the sun roof open and the sunshine shining onto my peaceful face. I woke up feeling warm and loved and touched by a God who adores me.
but now class is over so it’s time for me to leave.